Sozie to wordpress and beyond.

4:21 PM

I have to transfer everything to a blog that I could easily organize. And then... I decided to choose my wordpress account. Since I am no more a student now, I need to be more formal and i need to leave my creative-plus-complicated side for a while.

This has always been my favorite blog. However, just like any stages in our lives, one needs to move on just to blend in. To this account: I still love you, my blogger. xoxo!!

Please check out http://soz502.wordpress.com for new updates about my life.
See you there! :D
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time: 4:21 PM
date: Sunday, April 18, 2010

Oh Billy, I lost the game.

7:54 PM

You win, I lose.

In a battle of two, when both are perfectly matched with powers on the same level, ONE should always have to be defeated. There may be different reasons behind the defeat but the person who lost the game was never too weak. It may be of a mistake causing one to fall and wallow in the mud.

However, for as long as we live, there is enough time to win all the battles we need to brave.

Just like in reality, we play games; make mistakes; and get defeated.

But, why, of all the help a loser should deserve, everyone gives a piercing eye and a shower of back stabs instead?

I believe that in the recent battle I faced, I lost.

When I started to get so focused in every magical event which took place in my summer '09 adventure, an opponent had to boom a nameless catastrophe and tried to turn everything into black.

Of course, I never knew it was a game. But I knew it was a BIG MISTAKE.

I saw the big picture when I started to drop the most important details in my life. And yes, I was on the brink of getting broke.

When I thought that the make-believe was coming into life, I was thrilled and oh-so-willing to give up everything that was yet to come. A foolish idea - yet my stupid brain entertained it and embraced it without any doubt.

I was ready to lose everything just for the game.

I was ready to lose my best-est friend just for the game. I shooed him away almost everyday just to get rid of him. But he never left me. I turned into a pitiless best friend who selfishly thought of her own game. Yes, it was that harsh.

I was ready to lose my dignity to face all the eyebrows to be raised so high and the bottomless gossips to pour when I get back and receive the trophy I longed to have.

I was also ready to lose myself. I was ready to change every inch of Sozina and turn her into Angelina.

I was totally brainwashed and blinded by the folly and balloons of joy from the game which only happened in a small screen - into the screen of my beloved cell phone.

I was selfish and so was my opponent.

I didn't care and unknowingly did I play the game with the opponent's fans happily watching me losing the game.

I was almost trapped into the opponent's arms - uhm, i mean, lair. But my BBF didn't allow it to happen.

Fortunately, I never said 'I won' nor did I say, 'I love you, my opponent.'

Believe me, I never did. I would refuse a million times or for as long as I could. I swear every corner of the world, I know I did not utter those LOVING words.

I just liked the game and that was it.

I was ready to join an adventure with the opponent but I never ever ever exclaimed that I would love to be in his game forever.

That is why I lost the game for being the first to say, 'I give up.'

And he won all because he was the first to spread the news and intended to twist my line upside-down, curled and zig-zagged. It turned out, he was the first to give up.

Silly Billy. I should have known.

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But again, I tell you, Billy. I am a brave soul and I would do whatever I could just to let everyone know I was the first to lose the game.

LOL, and I am still lucky that I am capable to defend myself from YOU.

From now on, that would be the last game for you, Billy.

You are now crushed and buried down a hundred foot grave.

The game is OFFICIALLY over.
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time: 7:54 PM
date: Saturday, January 23, 2010

"You need a break"

7:36 PM

Woohoo. I'll be featured in my professor's blog this Sunday! See ya there!


I'll post the link when my entry's already posted.

xoxo,

Sozie :)

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CORRUPTION is just everywhere.

11:25 AM

Two weeks and a day of misery over a letter grade is just too much. Amid the sea of 'A-'s in my grade slip, who would have thought that an uninvited alien letter would exist. Yes, a notable D is a BIG mush pit in this paper island. F*CK! And hell, I got the grade just because I'm a DEVCOM student who does not deserve to be called an AGGIE alumni in three months time, or so I thought.

Seriously, this is the first time that some potato-and-quail-egg-looking professor had to push about 60 students down without any reason at all. No, I'm not talking about nonsensical things here, it is the one who's NONSENSICAL in its own system.

This was its so-called intangible and perfect grading sessions that we all wished we have not encountered:

  1. Its faulty system for the Marketing Project. This activity is good for the marketing lesson. However, there was a glitch with its system. He did not limit the trays that a student can get per day. For some students who had all the time and resources to sell eggs, they ordered 20-40 trays or even get every tray available when they have the time to visit Manresa. Some students who cannot afford to sell 20-40 trays a week, they only go there when they have time to get their share of eggs. In some days, according to Manong Barudo, the students cannot get enough eggs when the Pryce Plaza hotel orders a thousand quail eggs. Therefore, some would never get the chance to get enough quail eggs as what some can get. The issue that we want to stress there is that at the end of the semester, only a few students were able to gain P3,000 – P5,000 when some only grew P300 or less.
  2. ON MAJOR EXAMS, the handouts are expensive and bulky. One handout costs about P120 while other handouts range from P60-90. Therefore, if we sum up the possible total money we shell out for these handouts, it costs approximately P400. In the first place, IT should have announced from the start that these handouts can be too expensive and that we are to read a maximum of 240 pages per major exam. For us who are taking the subject as an elective, it has been a burden because it takes so much of our money. Another reason is, most of us are scholars and we cannot just simply ask money from our parents. In addition, how can we even read a 240-page handout given on the week of the exam?
  3. Rodeo Practices. There were two Sundays (July 19 & 26) during the ten-day break caused by the spread of A(H1N1) virus in our campus and one Friday (July 31) for the feast of St. Ignatius (a university-wide holiday) that the batch was asked to practice rodeo in Manresa. It, since it is a doctor, it should have known that some students might be carrying the virus and might be spreading this to the animals and also to the students available during that time. It was clear in the university memorandum that all classes are to be SUSPENDED. Also, the feast of St. Ignatius is an important event of the university and this should be used to commemorate St. Ignatius and notfor its SUBJECT only.
  4. RODEO/BUYING OF SEEDS as an alternative. Aside from the no-classes practices, the lab sessions were also used for us to practice the activity more. Therefore, all of us were able to practice how to do ‘RODEO’ and we learned the purpose of why we were required to perform the activity. For some who were not able to attend the FINAL competition (since it was held, again, on a SUNDAY), they were asked to buy three packs of seeds per variety (five varieties). A total of 15 packs of seeds were asked to be bought. The problem with that is that the buying of seeds was not a good alternative for the activity since it does not have any connection with Rodeo. Also, we did know how the seeds will be utilized or where the proceeds will go.
  5. FEEDING of FARM ANIMALS. For the whole part of the first term in the last semester, every tuesday at 6am, twelve groups from each class were asked to clean different animal houses alternately. The batch wants to know if this activity was recorded and fairly graded in its class record.
  6. THE FINAL REQUIREMENTS
    1. FEED FORMULATION – This was the hardest exam we took for the whole semester. We consider it appropriate for the course. It was also good that it gave us the freedom when to submit the paper. Most of us took the exam from 9am to 3pm, sacrificing our lunch. The question that kept us puzzled is how it did the grading of the exam especially that we had different answers and very long solutions. Some students said that the exam was scored with a total of 100 points, however, most of us only got 5-10 points.

        This activity has a twist, though. Usually, 'it' credits the students with plus five points everytime they are the first to pass their exam papers. On one of the student’s case, she took the exam for about four hours and for the final mark-up, she only got five points for this exam. On the other hand, the student who passed his paper first, even without answering the exam, got an insubstantial FIVE points.

    1. THE MOVING EXAM – Although it was difficult, this exam was the most appropriate among the four that is identified as final requirements. We identified grasses, equipments, and animal species – a proper way to evaluate the learning of students from the subject.
    2. EXERCISES 10-18We all think this was the most useless final requirement. All of us had to answer these exercises even when we did NOT perform the lab activities because of lack of time. How can we answer eight unperformed exercises when it was all based on lab activities?
    3. UTILITY PROJECT – The students were asked to buy materials that could help Manresa. It was supposedly OKAY. However, the project was scored inappropriately - the grade depended on the COST of the material. For example, one student bought a material which costs P70, he gained 70 points. All of us only knew about this after we got our grades.
The bloody Grading System. There were students who did their best (although their best might not be enough to the professor) who got the same grades as those who are not often seen in class. It was nice to know that nobody failed except for the fact that most of us got Ds and Cs. This grading system is already very questionable. How did it come up with our grades? If it is true that all of us got the same pattern of grades, it only means that IT may be, as its title suggests, a better doctor than an effective teacher.


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I know that it is not nice to assume that things were rooted from mere CORRUPTION in the classroom. But the thought that we all pushed to give so much effort, time and money for this subject is waaaaaaaaaay to much to expect for a doggy
D
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time: 11:25 AM
date: Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Sensual smoke

12:09 AM

touch me through your eyes
your voice swing me
like a silhouette
flying back and forth

caress me with your
soul's breath
swift your hair's fingers
along my bare arms

curve your lips
to my lavish look
fragrance shall flow
smoothly for your sniff

lock your face
close to my ear

kiss me.
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time: 12:09 AM
date: Wednesday, July 8, 2009

bamboo's fault.

11:49 PM

Talking to self:

"O, kay bilis namang maglaho ng pag-ibig mo, sinta.
Daig mo pa'ng isang Kisap-mata"

great.
what the hell was [it] doing in my head?
okay.

BAMBOO IS GREAT!

i luuuurrrvee him so much (including his mates!)

forget melancholic whatevers. It's bamboo who deserves [the attention]
not any alien around.

i love this. i hate [it].

ahhh! scrambled brain. scrambled heart.


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"I don't have enough strength to move away from you..."

uggggh!!! EDWARD IS MINE! (not ROB) BUT EDWAAAAARRRD!

I LOVE YOU MY VAMPIRE!


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time: 11:49 PM
date: Friday, November 28, 2008

Paano kung hindi ka na. . .

12:00 PM


The rosebushes of make-believe became bouquets
of real likeness.


And so I found myself deeply trembling beneath the wooden covers. Badly trembling again. I have wanted this all my one-month-long of staying out late in school. I've been - I guess - the witness of all the difficulties we have surpassed. The fire which stuck in our skins was at last, been at rest and far out-thrown.

The audience dipped their tongues out at laughing our serious indulgent of our successes. Yes, we were laid into the spotlight without some of these spectators knowing how far we have become and what kind of alienable things we have shed. I guess all of the Devcomm graduates became part of this exceptional trial. And we were one of those batches who were almost out of track. But thank God, we got out alive! We were there, witnesses of how the production became an inevitable performance. How it suddenly, or should I say, it became magical in the eyes of the many. I have heard no negative comments from the ones who watched us. Though, there were lapses, they were unnoticed and sealed from their eyes.



I LOVE OUR PRODUCTION SO MUCH that it hurts to let go of the moments that are starting to fade. Yes, we were obtuse but that made us all unique. That made us turn to ourselves and see through the edges. It was a great success. By far, it is the most unforgettable experience I will hold all my life.

DAWBI, mag re-run kaha mi??

*This is my chance to thank Nanette Matillac for a very wonderful storyline! Although you might not able to read this, I am deeply thankful of you for your approval and for making your story a part of our memorable moment.

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time: 12:00 PM
date: Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Imposible nga ba?

5:50 PM

Paano nga ba magawa ang imposible?
Kung ang lahat DAW ay posible?
Paano kung hindi mo man lang mayakap ang katotohanan?
At kung hindi mo matakbuhan ang kasinungalingan?
Paano kung hanggang doon na lang,
kung saan walang katuturan ang lahat ng posibleng mangyari.
Paano na ang imposible na pilit kinakamtan?
Paano?
Paano?
Paano 'pag ito na ang katapusan?

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i am a journalism student. but I never saw it winding up before me. i never really even thought that i could be a writer or that i can write. my works are often wounded with a lot of errors - and i've been too sad, too regretful that i thought i am better on the other side. but you see, afterglows are great especially when you tried giving up. I almost did. I almost dropped everything because I could not swallow "the tidbits of awful reality".

my afterglow happened at appropriately 11:45 this morning. Ma'am Van, our journalism lecture instructress, showed me this site:

http://aggies.xu.edu.ph/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=184&Itemid=68

This might be so small to your eyes or too big for the ones who thought that I'm bragging. But I think you should know that this is my first published article (ever) on an online site that is not owned by me. I'm just ecstatically something. haha. call me a loser. I don't care.

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time: 5:50 PM
date: Monday, September 1, 2008

Gadget Lovers stand in awe.

11:17 PM

If you have a desk-full pile of gadgets, why don’t you try replacing all of it and consider a simple techie life with one that offers you everything you need in a gadget?

Photo source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/24535883@N07/2567371592/sizes/m/

Discover Samsung Omnia (SGH-i900) as it came alive to meet your plea at a world launch at Communicasia 2008 last week, at the Samsung booth in Singapore Expo’s Hall 4. Its name ensembles what truly it is made for since it is rooted from “everything” in Latin and “wish” in Arabic – for which it promises to carry out all you desire in a mobile.

With its fashionable and lustrous exterior, it allows you to experience satisfaction of digital entertainment as it sports its wide 3.2-inch
WQVGA LCD screen within your palm!

Samsung Omnia is also powered with Windows Mobile 6.1 operating system and an optical mouse, making you feel more like bringing your personal computer anywhere at anytime! It also has 16GB internal memory and 32GB external memory storing up to incredibly 8,000 songs, 12,000 pictures, and 23 DVDs. Plus, its touch-screen keyboard offers three manipulation kinds – a QWERTY, a 5x4 and a 3x4 – making it more unique and so easy to use.

The detachable and 400-hour-lasting-on-standby battery is also an exceptional add-on to its accessibility.

This innovative, one-of-its-kind and chic device will surely make gadget gurus take an exaggerated awe.

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time: 11:17 PM
date: Tuesday, July 15, 2008

It's raining tears!

12:51 AM

The morning came and I had to be ready for school. I was so hesitant to attend my class (DC84 - Journalism) because I had a big fight with my bbf and my so-called ego is under the spell of hot, burning anger. But every time I get to these kinds of situations, I always remember that mistake I've made in high school. So, I chose to get up my bed and do the do's. As I went up the hill to fetch a jeepney (ha-ha! like Jill came tumbling after… lalalala), I encountered a jeepney which was almost full but enough for me to join the passengers’ swarming butts. However, I was too lazy to join them because I wanted to sit on the corner and own it for half an hour in traveling. And so, I joined the alley’s next jeepney and there, I got the corner’s seat for free. Yey!

FATE is already my bestestfriend for always allowing me to see messages through actions and unexplainable coincidences. When I arrived at BDO (near XU), I realized that my bbf was walking in front of me! Uwwwwwwwwaaaaahh! All my plans on escaping from his/her view were gone from that moment! And so I decided to walk straight and pretended I didn’t see his/her big body blocking my way. I rushed ‘til I realized that I arrived in our room and smiled after noticing that he/she wasn’t there yet! Waaaaaaaah. And I was struggling on what to do next because any second he/she will be facing me and start his/her explanation. I had this single decision over the matter and it was (at that time) fixed. I was really fuming and there’s really no way of changing my decision.

Except that I’m too weak in handling bawling situations. I’m too weak that all the rages I feel can easily be tendered. And I love every human who have touched my life – especially my best bud forever (bbf). I guess you know now what happened. Obviously, we’re friends again!! yipeey!
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About 4 hours ago, I was at Loreto's to witness the 'farewell' party of one of the best teachers I've ever met. Before we went to the venue, we bought some flowers and cards for her. And everything that happened during the party was full of happiness mixed with craziness added with some ‘bulgaran’ issues and of course, tears. What struck me most is that she left words that are so significant to me – as her student (not only for values and things but also for life itself). That slight instant when she dubbed my name and explained why she will never forget me was like a chance to make me realize that everyone has their noteworthy place in the hearts of the many or even to countless beings. I realized my worth. I didn’t feel like crying, though. But you know that feeling when you are so honored because you’ve recognized a big part of yourself from a person you admire so much? Ahh, this is really so delightful and lovely yet so sad because she will be gone for another job. Oh, well. It’s part of life! But anyway, thank you Ma’am Lai! We love you!
it's 12:51 am --- OFF I SOULD GO!
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time: 12:51 AM
date: Sunday, July 6, 2008

A quick glance of bleeding fame.

10:37 PM

Musolod na, kuya?
Ayaw sah kay ga set pa sila.
Aw. Sige.

later..

Ang naa na'y mic, sulod na.


I was holding it right within my fingers. The crowd went silent as we entered the stage. Lights off. No music. My head's been shouting four letters: G-E-S-S! (God, Eye-to-eye contact, Smile, Straight body) I didn't feel any pain during that slight moment before owning the spotlight. But when the light finally turned on, there, I almost forgot GESS. I was overwhelmed with the yells, with the flashes of cameras & the power of fear (in me). I can feel the pressure and it was pulling me out of the stage - I almost backed out right at that moment! I wanted to run backstage & never come back to school again.. However, it would be the most devastating act if I would not do it right then and there! I would fail all those who believed in my ability; in my skills and those who helped me climb that stage. I know I just have to do it - whether I ran out of air or went off-key, I didn't care at all - I JUST HAVE TO DO IT. I felt all the tensions I've never felt for years. People who sat in front of me surely noticed it - the most shameful trembling of my whole body. I was FULL of EMOTIONS and it almost choked me. Yet, no one didn't know how exactly I've felt. And I tell you, it was great. That was one of the times when I FELT MOST ALIVE -- and ALL SEEMED REAL. Help me ring a bell again. IT WAS REALLY REAL. *brrrr* Allota thanks TITA DOI for fitting me into that wonderfully sown SEDUCTIVE IMAGE - some people will never ever know it was me. haha!
Off I should go!
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time: 10:37 PM
date: Friday, June 27, 2008

out from vanity.

11:42 PM

'nuf with my face scattering around my background. I'll bring that back someday ;)
here's paramore.♥ coz I'm lovin' them mOre!^^,
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time: 11:42 PM
date: Tuesday, June 17, 2008

PARAMORE ROCKS BIG TIME!

12:42 AM

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OMGawd! THIS VIDEO ROCKS SUPER BIG TIME!

I love how Haley reacted after 'she' pulled the silicon out from the b*thch's bra. It's a sweet & innocent smile/revenge or a quiet fight back to what that whore has been doing to the other girls around. The video just can't get out of my system right now after I've watched it for 15+ times. LOL!

I AM INLOVE with PARAMORE. I AM INLOVE with HALEY! Got a problem with that?? ^.-

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time: 12:42 AM
date: Thursday, June 12, 2008

Cropped Poem.

9:51 PM

I saw her.
And my heart went wallowing again.
I saw her.
And my mind's lost again.
They told me I am prettier.
But my eyes don't lie
And I know she is prettier.
But my self choose to save my own lie.

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these lines are the original starter of one of the poems I've posted here in my blog. Well, Dig deeper and you shall find out. *wink!*
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time: 9:51 PM
date: Tuesday, June 10, 2008

My 360-degree share of turn.

10:55 PM

All I'm thinking about right at this very moment is how I've handled the most indefinite yet sweetest thing in this world. I guess you could get it right even if I would not slam that single word here.

I swear. I am overly puking just thinking of that word. Not because I do not like it; nor I'm done with it but because I AM FULL OF IT - I am even so very proud bringing it with me all the time. I can say that I am one of the luckiest girls in this world for being so blessed with that word.

However, I can say that I am a spoiled brat for walking this far (and because some one's doing it all for me).

[Caution: LAME words on the next paragraph!]

Those creatures who have stumbled & pushed me to the ground like I am one hell of a pest are now melting with awes and disbelief. Those mouths which have soaked me in a barrel full of nasty words are now vomiting with whats and wows. To tell everyone honestly, I now feel like I am greater than what I have been. And I have realized that I am not as ordinary as what they've thought me to be.

To that person who never left me from the very moment when I needed someone up until now:

THANK YOU & I OWE YOU A LIFETIME.
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time: 10:55 PM
date: Saturday, June 7, 2008

10:53 PM

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time: 10:53 PM
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talking about THE self.

8:23 PM

I got this video clip from Juna's Site. Obviously, that's me. I guess I am born to disguise as 'angelic' (as what most would describe me). I've always wanted to come out from the shell and let all people see the truth behind that mysterious yet pleasing facade (ehehehemmm!). There were already times that I've narratively opened my true self. But on the way people react on whatever I say against what they see, I just know they would never believe me. Well, that's life. Though I'm telling this, it doesn't mean that I do not want that amazing trait. Actually, that's something I am most proud of.. Why I'm telling this? Because I fear of being rejected, loathed & humiliated.
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time: 8:23 PM
date: Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Homework uncovered. *winks*

11:22 AM

Magical Tales are awed because of eloquent words. Dictatorial Speeches are feared because of powerful expressions. Journalistic articles are looked up by amateurs because of explicit and accurate information. But no one can deny that in this century, much of this intricate world is already composed of inappropriate imitations, vulgarities, and recklessness – through the alleys of cyberspace.

I am but another victim of the pleasures within this realm of damnation. I am one of those ‘bloggers’ stated in the article of William Deitrich entitled, ‘Are Journalists the 21st Century Buggy Whip Makers?’ . I am also one of the many youth who are addicted to friendster.com or myspace.com. And with these, I have my own e-mail, too. I have known prominent-named aspiring journalists or bloggers within the dimensions of the internet. I was greatly astonished with the superficial blog entries made by (*censored*) way back when I was in third year high school especially that he is a year younger than me. And with that, I was out to prove that I can be just like him; that I will be able to touch people from different parts of this planet.But later on, because of frequent viewing of his page, I was able to find out that he posts a lot of entries regarding his being an atheist. Those made me feel bad because I was respecting one person whose values aren’t parallel with mine. It’s actually rude and classless for him to indicate that he is proud to be an atheist. Does that mean that he wants to carry the people who are his avid readers to the kind of belief that he has and persuade them to be like him? Because I was able to learn from him, I already have my own blogsite. I choose to produce lighter entries which cover my everyday stories and sometimes, I also rant. Unfortunately, because I was overwhelmed that I can have my freedom of speech in my own page, one mild rant made me experience a big fight with one of my closest friends.

It’s already a trend, whether we condemn the fact or not. However, considering that anyone can bring impact and be famous to thousands of people all throughout the world in just one mouse click can be a big defeat for journalists who are striving so hard to produce balanced articles every day. When you’re out in the real world, you’ll meet newspapers, magazines and the like in news stands inside convenience stores. You’ll probably notice the bylines of journalists printed within their published articles. This only assures readers that they are licensed to answer back also, through e-mail or through conventional mailing – which is much more private. When you’re inside the cyberspace, the narrowness, insensitivity and crudeness among bloggers are highlighted by readers. Yes, the old mechanisms of media’s checks and balances are still in place. Readers in the cyberspace, because of the fear of libel cases, sign under anonymity. That very thing could pull those bloggers down just like a total harassment with the hundreds and thousands of attacks of readers through the person as a whole, not considering the person as what he/she is with the written product he/she produces. With that, journalists should worry no more. They are much more appreciated and noticed by many, even though not merely the whole from this humanity.

I am actually tired living in this realm of damnation, or the cyberspace, which occupies me so much. This is something rotten and the smell of cyberspace is über-hallucinating. I should be out of here. I should love my own world first.
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time: 11:22 AM
date: Sunday, May 25, 2008

I just felt the urge to write.. that's all.

12:05 AM

I was a steadfast blogger ages ago even if I knew that I'm really not a good writer that could launch thousands of eyes into reading my entries. I am better titled as a "frustrated writer".. I used that frustration to charge my need to explode at times when I ought to vomit all unnecessary emotions stucked inside me.


Well, it actually helps. A lot!


I've produced numerous poems, essays and songs which were forgotten and misplaced. Just because they were all trashes - wastes that should not be kept. Overreading them doesn't help after all.. They just form the same emotions felt from how it was conceived.


Actually, it's not the posts I make that amaze me. But the way I've learned how to control those people overreacting and forming different misconceptions about the things I write. Well, it's still up to how open-minded people are nowadays. That reason fuels my artistic side and makes me want to dig more of this infuriating-slash-stupendous-slash-questionable realm of damnation (z' cyberspace). hehe=p




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time: 12:05 AM
date: Saturday, May 24, 2008

When half turns out to be better..

3:56 PM

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Have you tried being cut & caught in the middle?


Me? I did. A LOT OF TIMES! Well, at first, it's something I owe to the world - for being (sometimes) so well toasted because people get inquisitively hooked (?) by my mysterious persona.

[There is supposed to be something next to this post but then I have to leave you hanging.. =) because all's not yet worth to be posted.]

-Off!

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time: 3:56 PM
date: Monday, April 21, 2008

Summer Time = Em ALIVE!

4:53 PM

Haha! After ages, I've finally thought of rebuilding my blog. It's been dead for a month. Gawsh. xD *hides behind the door* LOL! & now, I'm finally back! I hope I'll be staying here more often. *sigh* You see, I've really been so busy. And up to now, my list is still full . I keep on hibernating amidst the heat of the summer! So, go check me out when school's up again, you'll probably see me way bloated than before.
Ohh! I even forgot how I usually sign off.
hahaha! SHAME ON ME!
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Trends, fashion and pop culture are a valid part of your life, but if you make
them your first priority right now, they will use up energy and money that could
be better spent elsewhere. Today, focus your efforts and thoughts on things that
are more permanent. The latest fads are good for a bit of entertainment -- but
that's about it. Your morals and your personal philosophy need attention right
now. You need to swing the pendulum back in the direction of substance and away
from style
OMG. my Horoscope is telling the truth!!
OFf I should GO??!
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time: 4:53 PM
date: Friday, April 18, 2008

he's been out there.

11:08 PM

ieWhy does it have to come back when all it gave was pain and total blindness? Why does it pain soo much when I was not able to have even a pint of taste of totality with another?

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His face went shallowed - a kind of mask that's almost non-existing.
I couldn't recognize his smile at all.
And those weary eyes I've been hunting before.
And that laugh that sprung harmony inside of me years ago.

He's changed - not at all a mess.
who changed him?

And mine came back.
I'm no longer his.
Those were again, memories -
Memories meant to be thrown away.

He's just out there
He's near.
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time: 11:08 PM
date: Monday, March 3, 2008

... and a thousand more times.

7:45 PM

The soft swift of the air that washes my face

is a message from someone I've loved for so long.

Shadows of the unchanging time are stucked across my mind.

This impecabble moment holds me so dearly behind the grandeurs

BARS of LOVE'S MAJESTY. I am now a prisoner.

I could barely remember this kingdom.

I've been to nowhere - a place where everyone's entitled as BLIND.

Yet, my eyes stood & still bewildered over the reminiscences gone by.

And my heart? Oh, only torn and worn out.

I've been there! But never to LOVE'S MAJESTY...

I've been there to the place they call foolishness with rivers

of tears and vanishing euphoria.

And the very time I stepped into that place made

me see nothing but not right.

Ah, and all eyes on him -

And the world I endured was was so wonderful and inimitable.

Then, all ears on him -

My melodies sprung never for the kingdom and its mob

but only for him.

I loved him.

But for all those times, my heart bled for nothing

but the desire and hunger for FREEDOM.

"I need freedom!"

"I need freedom!" and a thousand more times.

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time: 7:45 PM
date: Friday, February 22, 2008

Dumbfounded. Again.

2:58 AM

I am already a three-time violator in not using the appropriate shoes.

1. Because my shoes are too light, not dark/black.

2. Because, again, my shoes are too light! (daw)

(the former and the latter are different kinds of shoes and they're both DARK GRAY. It's still DARK!)

D*mn those stup*d guards indicating different rules of their own. Ugh!

Question. What is this pair of shoes made of?

PLASTIC - NOT RUBBER.

It's plastic!!! Gawd.

And, THAT WAS THE THIRD TIME I WAS CAUGHT.

NOTE TO SELF: never ever ever ever ever ever ever use that kind of shoes again! EVER!!!

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time: 2:58 AM
date: Wednesday, February 6, 2008

T.T

7:31 PM

Move me away from
the seas of insecurities.
Move me away from
the waves of their undiscovered romance
Move me away from
the shells of misconceptions.
Move me away
And let the crab's claws
haunt me
and put my ego
back to where it belonged.
hehe.. trip lang. gdnyt!

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time: 7:31 PM
date: Friday, December 21, 2007

Sneak Peek: My infamous Busy Life. hmph!

8:30 PM

Chillin' with my DevCom friends after class.
During the visit of 'Paige' & 'Kandida')
Left to Right: Me, Paige, Cuenqie & Leah
Me with Kandida!
WACKY POSERS! =D

Anger. Fear. Vengeance. Hope. Innocence.
"MAGING SINO KA MAN" BSDC-II version



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The ORANGERS! ^^,


2nd Year DevCom nga present sa CB! (LRG! Naghakot ug awards! Whoot!)

Pa cute mi ni Joyce! =D

[BABY Pictorial]



My favorite!


My 2nd Favorite!


huhu.. luoy au si Teddy bah? =p



Credits: Most Pix are from Donna, Henry, Karakrakan and Jerlly! Baby Figurines: Me and My Mom! ^.*

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Moi Bloggenz: Everything Under The Sun... With You!

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time: 8:30 PM
date: Thursday, December 20, 2007

slickered dreams come true - when I don't need them at all

11:23 PM

I am a peasant in disguise.
I love to be in the middle
Neither too low nor high
- where less of those eavesdroppers
give me an eye.

I am one of Paris Hilton's bestfriends.
Walking over red carpets lined through
the runway aisle is my main street.
But I will remain in the middle
- where anxious photographers won't
spare me their snapshots.

I am the talker
when one is silent.
I am silent
when one is the talker.

I am the writer
when he's the reader.
I am the reader
when he's the writer.

I have nothing to do with the case
when I can't reach one goal.
Because I'm only at the middle.
And no one raised me higher.
No one pushed me to the floor.

But my true love came right
across me.
Screamed the lines:
"Middle is still worst.
You can't be sure of anything..
Whether one day you'd realize
that you're the greatest person known
nor the only person drifted in the mud."

I'm confused. I just need an answer - the right one.

-sozie (written: 10:49 am; DC 2 A class)

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time: 11:23 PM
date: Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Now showing...

5:40 AM

-cebu version!


toinkz. resulta ni sa wai lingaw. heheheh :D

*thnx to charise and karen p. for making this possible.

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time: 5:40 AM
date: Thursday, September 6, 2007

can you get my bag, pls?

6:29 PM

So there I was, wrapped in a black-and-white-spaghetti-strapped cocktail dress. My hair? pony tailed and that infamous bangs sticked @ my right eye the whole evening. I knew all the way that the event would be superfluous - just like those debuts celebrated by numerous 'blooming' ladies.


I saw one of my bestfriends, Micah, as I entered FIZZ BAR. Sat across her and looked around. I could recognize many of the guests because most are from my university. More guests filled the room until the party had to start. One thing that boggled me was the thought that only a few of my sms batchmates were around. It didn't even reached one-sixteenth of all the people who were there.


Oh well, I couldn't blame her anyway. We've taken her for granted; too much to make her feel unimportant.
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time: 6:29 PM
date: Sunday, September 2, 2007

two hundred eleven pesos? :o tsk. tsk.

9:46 PM

You look it over the following listand see how many of these things youhave done. BUT you have to ADD up themoney amount along the way. Then postthe amount that you are as the titleof the bulletin.PS: the smaller the better!
1. Had sex: P40.00
2. Smoked: P40.00
3. drank alcohol: P20.00
4. Went skinny dipping: P40.00
5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex:P1.00
6. Kissed someone of the same sex:P15.00
7. Cheated on a test: P10.00
8. Fell asleep in class: P10.00
9. Been expelled: P50.00
10. Been in a fist fight: P40.00
11. Given oral: P40.00
12. Got oral: P40.00
13. Prank called the police: P30.00
14. Stole something: P30.00
15. Done drugs: P40.00
16.Dyed your hair: P10.00
17. Done something sexually withsomeone older (like a few years):P50.00.
18. Courted someone OVER 18 (if yourunder 18): P40.00
19. Ate a whole bag of oreos: P30.00
20. Cried yourself to sleep: P1.00
21. Said you love someone but didntmean it: P10.00
22. Been in love: P10.00
23. Got caught doing something thatyou shouldnt have been doing: P40.00
24. Went streaking: P4.00
25. Got arrested: P50.00
26. Cuddled: P4.00
27. Peed in the pool: P5.00
28. Played spin the bottle: P20.00
29. Done something you regret: P20.00

Now add up and post as "I COST P......if u do not repost u will have 5 years of bad luck
You look it over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to ADD up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin.

{Goodness! P211?? hahaha :) thanks to NADES for posting this survey on friendster. }

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time: 9:46 PM
date: Monday, August 20, 2007

The Clock is Ticking.

9:00 PM

Global Warning: The World's Endangered Destinations

Take a look at some of the places that may be in danger—and some that are already experiencing the effects of global warming.


The Everglades, Florida: Perhaps no region of the country is as vulnerable to climate change as Florida. Even a slight increase in temperature and water level could prove devastating to popular destinations like the Everglades, Miami Beach and the Keys.

Kenai Fjords National Park, Alaska: A sign in Kenai Fjords National Park indicates where the Exit Glacier reached in 1978; about a half-mile away from where it has receded to today. A jaw-dropping spectacle for the thousands of tourists who flock to Alaska each year, many Alaska glaciers are rapidly receding.

Australia’s Great Barrier Reef: One of the most impressive natural habitats in the world, the Great Barrier Reef could be killed by increased water temperatures and the resulting coral bleaching. Australia is particularly vulnerable to global warming because of its large number of fragile ecosystems, uncertain water sources and a high concentration of people living on the coast.

The Netherlands: Popular for its abundant windmills, tulips, art and history, low-lying Holland—long dependent on dams and dikes to keep the ocean out—is at great risk from damaging floods over the next century.

Mt. Kilimanjaro, Tanzania: The first image of Kilimanjaro above was taken prior to 1998, the second in 2005. The fabled snows of Kilimanjaro have steadily declined over the past century, and all of its glaciers could be gone by 2020, according to a recent story in National Geographic.

Funafuti, Tuvalu: No countries are as fragile in the face of rising oceans as low-lying island nations, many of which are among the most popular tourist destinations. The tiny Pacific atoll nation of Tuvalu has been in talks with New Zealand about a possible evacuation of its 11,000 inhabitants if the oceans continue to rise.

South Georgia Island: Rife with king penguins, seal, whales and albatross, South Georgia Island, located just north of Antarctica, has become a popular stopover for cruise ships in the south Atlantic. Studies have shown that both poles are warming at a rate far faster than the rest of the planet, leading to decreased ice thickness and an increase in ice shelf disintegration.

Correction—April 26, 2007: This article previously stated that the penguins on South Georgia Island were emperor penguins. As a reader pointed out, they are in fact king penguins.

Dalian, China: Fast-growing China, shown here during a prolonged heat wave last year, is opening about one coal plant every day this year. Along with the U.S., China is one of the world's leading contributors to the greenhouse gases believed to be largely responsible for the increase in the Earth's temperature.

Venice, Italy: No stranger to flooding, Venice has invested $4.5 billion in a floodgate system that is due to open in 2012. New estimates of changing ocean levels have led some critics to call into question the floodgates' ability to hold out the rising waters.

Tokyo, Japan: Following Tokyo's first winter without snow in 131 years, the plum blossoms emerged three weeks earlier than normal this year. This occurrence is being echoed by migratory patterns and spawning cycles throughout the natural world.

Wengen, Switzerland: This January, 2007 photo of the Swiss Alps shows what some forecasters fear could be the near future for lower-elevation ski resorts. Climate scientists have projected that all of the glaciers in the Alps will be completely melted by 2050.

Manhattan, New York City: With high concentrations of population living just above sea level, New York and Los Angeles were listed in a recent report from the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change as being at risk of potentially catastrophic "megafloods" resulting from rising oceans and stronger storms in the next century.

Halong Bay, Vietnam: With a high percentage of its population living along the coast, Vietnam faces considerable risk from the effects of global warming. Experts worry that developing nations may not have the resources available to thwart the dangers of climate change as readily as wealthier nations.

St. Claude Street Bridge, New Orleans: Many climatologists believe that the increased temperature of the Gulf of Mexico led to the strengthening of hurricanes Katrina and Rita in the fall of 2005. Higher water temperatures could lead to a greater frequency of Category 4 and 5 hurricanes in the future.

London, England: Designed to protect London from storm surges and extremely high tides, the Thames Barrier was opened in 1984. Some analysts fear that rising oceans will create conditions beyond the capabilities the barrier was designed to meet.

Northwest Territories, Canada: Polar bears have become one of the more obvious victims of the impact of global warming. With about 23,000 square miles of Arctic sea ice melting every year, the bears' hunting grounds are shrinking rapidly. Some scientists predict polar bears will be extinct in the next century.

Source: live earth on MSN

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time: 9:00 PM
date: Sunday, July 29, 2007

SAD.

10:26 PM

My life was bound to be broken eversince I got a mind of my own. I was wrapped with solitude, was very lonely and was afraid to face the world. There were some who tried to sprinkle a little care and made me happy for a little while. But in the end, they all did the same: they gave me heartaches that will never be healed. Tired, knees on the ground, drifted with emotions - asking for help from every being I'd encounter. At long last and unexpectedly, my plead was heard from some meteor hanging from the horizon that very night...
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Well, that paragraph above is, somewhat, a bit fictional. But, honestly, it pictures out what my life is... on how I see it.
I am just totally
Sad
And
Dying.
[[ don't worry. iL edit this later.. =) ]]
Off I should go!^^,
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time: 10:26 PM
date: Thursday, July 19, 2007

10:33 PM

I'm e x h a u s t e d. pfft. Will you welcome me for being alive again? hehehehe :) This should have been my first "great" post after 2 long months of being absent in the blogging world. Unfortunately, it's prelim week and I should prioritize my studies FIRST!
(nakz! hilas bah? hehe.)

I swear I'm gonna post some interesting stuffs here when the workload is ceased.

here goes my tagline again:
Off I should go!! ^^,

mwah!
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time: 10:33 PM
date: Monday, July 9, 2007

Whoo! ^^

2:46 PM




I so love her.
I love Ms. Caridee!

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[iL edit this Later.]

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time: 2:46 PM
date: Saturday, May 19, 2007

now, freeze.

7:30 AM

Sometimes, when I'm HAPPY, I want to control every corner of the world and embrace it for it to stop spinning. And if only I was the owner of TIME, I would try to freeze the moments that I don't want to end.

Just like last night!

It was my loveteam's birthday and I felt so sad and angry because I could not be with him in any way. The night before his day, I labeled myself as a flat broke after I've spent my last bucks for my cellphone load. I did it for the sake of hearing his voice over the phone and saying my special greetings for him.

The day went on swiftly. I kept getting in touch with him through text messaging and at the same time, still feeling sorry for myself. Another heartbreaking incident followed when his sim was blocked. I don't know how that happened and it made me feel worse!

I tried to console myself by texting other people close to me. I just got lucky when Khendy, one of my blockmates, said that she was with him and also with some of our blockmates. I was then beginning to panic when Khendy told me that he was coming over our house. I suspiciously thought that Khendy was just fooling me the whole time. So, I just sat relaxed outside our store reading the book written by Beth Day Romulo.

Minutes later, he appeared right in front of me showing that mezmerizing smile I've longed to see for days! I was a bit skittish, frozen for a couple of seconds. We walked, heading to the spot where we used to stay and talk for awhile before we head to our own houses.

It was kind of odd that he was the one who gave me a present when it was supposed to be his birthday! I felt so abashed that I don't even have anything to give. huhu. The only thing that I could offer that moment was my endearment. I gave him a big bear hug and at that moment, I wanted to whisper the words I've always wanted to cough out but I just couldn't dare. It might not sound right but that's just how I feel. And I don't know why I still do not have that ENOUGH courage to let it ALL out.

Hmm.. He really made me happy... Hope I did the same to him.

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Oh, isn't she amazing??

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date: Thursday, May 10, 2007
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