now, freeze.

Sometimes, when I'm HAPPY, I want to control every corner of the world and embrace it for it to stop spinning. And if only I was the owner of TIME, I would try to freeze the moments that I don't want to end.

Just like last night!

It was my loveteam's birthday and I felt so sad and angry because I could not be with him in any way. The night before his day, I labeled myself as a flat broke after I've spent my last bucks for my cellphone load. I did it for the sake of hearing his voice over the phone and saying my special greetings for him.

The day went on swiftly. I kept getting in touch with him through text messaging and at the same time, still feeling sorry for myself. Another heartbreaking incident followed when his sim was blocked. I don't know how that happened and it made me feel worse!

I tried to console myself by texting other people close to me. I just got lucky when Khendy, one of my blockmates, said that she was with him and also with some of our blockmates. I was then beginning to panic when Khendy told me that he was coming over our house. I suspiciously thought that Khendy was just fooling me the whole time. So, I just sat relaxed outside our store reading the book written by Beth Day Romulo.

Minutes later, he appeared right in front of me showing that mezmerizing smile I've longed to see for days! I was a bit skittish, frozen for a couple of seconds. We walked, heading to the spot where we used to stay and talk for awhile before we head to our own houses.

It was kind of odd that he was the one who gave me a present when it was supposed to be his birthday! I felt so abashed that I don't even have anything to give. huhu. The only thing that I could offer that moment was my endearment. I gave him a big bear hug and at that moment, I wanted to whisper the words I've always wanted to cough out but I just couldn't dare. It might not sound right but that's just how I feel. And I don't know why I still do not have that ENOUGH courage to let it ALL out.

Hmm.. He really made me happy... Hope I did the same to him.